today you didn't come.



i have an eerie feeling,
as i just woke to bid the morning- hi,
today seems unusual,
as i stand uneasy in the shower.

my heart feels heavy,
my brain is a messed up dump.

my feet and hands nervously trembled.


as i stood there staring out,

wondering if i could catch a glimpse of shine,
amused by the cool breeze,
that when i heard the call.

when i hear your voice,

i really hope that is a prank,
it was so quiet,
that i could hear,

the whine of noise in my room,

simple emptiness of thoughts,

all quiet and silence and all motionless.


was it God's plan?
for something that will be at it worst?
today i think,
as i always have been wondering.
maybe it is written in the stars?

it's 9.30 am,

i am still hoping to hear,
your silent footstep along the hall.
and the gentle voice of 'hi my dear".

time is taking it's own sweet moments,

minute after minute,
seconds after each,
earth is spinning at its slowest speed,

when i wanted so much to hold you near.

crazy thoughts creep into my brain,
when ''what if?'' came flooding through my thoughts.

i remembered yesterday,

when u walk out from my door,
if i knew what would happen?

will i pull you back and hug you once more?
it all happens,
when today you didn't come.

you will never be lonely.

Somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile, so when you are lonely remember it’s true, someone somewhere is thinking of you and that some one will always be me.

you complete me! really ...

when the sun don't seem to shine anymore

today the sun don't seem to shine,
and the moon no longer bright,
or when the stars no longer twinkle.
that's when u know,
how broken it is.

tonight no words left to say,
or memory left to play,
but just plan thoughts of you.
tonight i shall die alone,
banish into your love.

let me play in the rain.
so me and my aching heart cries.
i shall live in my lonely paradise.
is this my sweet mistake?
why do i live in a world so cold?
fighting in lonely battles?
it's broken now,
shattered and cracked,
and all that is left is an empty chest.

moonlit stars.




the iciness in the hour of darkness,

shiver,cold,frozen;
the wintry floor,

the chilly wind,
the dusty room,

the murky hall,

the bitter heart.

the silence i hear tonight,

the loneliness i feel,
the rush of night wind brushing through,my bare naked skin,
the hollowness of an unfilled heart,
the brain waves creeps in,
of whom i gave my heart to?
i don't know,
if the shadow of the past,

or the history of your memory;
still lingers around my present-day.

we we stare.

when we stare,
as we lock our eyes.
gazing in each other soul.
there is 101 reason, why my heart would beat,
it is because of u.
there is not a word that can express,
the way u make me feel,
as both our hearts join to beat as one;
in a special day as we became unofficially official.

I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.


100th post for the next 100 years



in my 100th post-i shall post about us...
1058pm 21st july 2010.
u n me.
only u n me...
hoping in my 1oooooo post u'll still be the one i'll be blogging about..

i am glad because it happen

because once upon a time happen, as my prince came with a priceless gift, we shared true love kiss and we shall live happily ever after. this is a fairy tale. my fairy tale. my dream come true.
Your one naughty person. an adorably naughty person because u make me laughed n cry at the same time. my heart was with you. and it's still is. only u are capable of doing so.

at the darkest hour..

my day brightens up because your warm words says it all.

8.15 pm

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this is how i feel. only in your arms.

will thee?

will thee still love me, even after i have turn into dust?

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and that someone is you.

27092010949

what am i gonna do without you???

my world





my world is twice as exciting. u painted my life with rainbows and bloomed with flowers. your eyes says it all.. and your kiss tell me that you love me.and when i am breaking, i break only for you.

live beautifully



i love thee,like the glad bird loves,

like the freedom of its wing;

of which delightedly it moves,

i wish so muchhhhh...
if i can rewind the time.. i am addicted to you.. my passion,my love,my soul,my other half.


if i would fall into a deep deep sleep.. will you come and wake me up in my enchanted world?

where did u go?


tears rushing down my eyes,
legs aren't strong enough to walk any further.
I,
Fell onto the ground,
everything went into pieces.
my heart my soul left unhealed.
it doesn't matter anymore,
where my heart belong to.

-johnw.y.h-

hard to say i am sorry?




what if....


what if one day i left u suddenly without knowing myself will be leaving you ?
what if im gone ?
no one take care of u while you're drunk ?
no one send u home ?
no one help u carry books or bottle ?
no one kiss u ?
no one hug u ?
no one text and call u ?



-my dear-
there is no what if... yesterday,tomorrow and the next day, today, the present, you'll always be in my heart... i promise you..and there is no need to apologize. don't worry of losing me cause i'll never leave.come what may...




hard to say i am sorry.

Everybody needs a little time away
I've heard her say
From each other

Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay
And after all that you've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you, baby

And after all thats been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Not for a day
From your body
Wouldn't want to be swept away
Far away from the one that I love

And after all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you

And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go

I can't let go.

-and i will never ever let u go-

banquet of love


everything u did is worth the while.




my valentine,
this night,
my world is filled with love,
a memory so fond is etched in my mind.

another journey u endure,
yet another choice u make.
its right-definately.

outside its quiet,
in a garden so big.
we are on the stage,
tonight i felt magical.
for i am not here to sing.
but for my heart to dance,
the beautiful tune of love.

you gave me magic,
a magic called a kiss.
the stage is suddenly bright,
for i am showered by stars,
and under the moonlight my soul-
rejoiced.
true love kiss, my heart says!

i want to kiss,
your soul.
if only i could reach that far.
kiss me shine of midnight moonlight,
captured my heart,
my every soul,
a proverb that always go,
soul meet soul,
on lovers lip.

a curse is broken,
my pain i forgets,
your kiss isnt just a kiss,
your kiss is a demised of eternal bliss.
kiss me with your promise,
that you'll always be there,
kiss me with another promise,
that you'll always be mine.

one last kiss,
for all that you are,
i wish that-to be an endless night,
the clock has no boundary,
for now i missed,
everything that we did,
on a mystical night
in a banquet of love.

this girl




this girl,
she finds it heart breaking,
she finds it confusing.

this girl,
she wonders
if the world that she's been living all these years
are turning upside down.

this girl,
finds it hard to cope with the things happening around,
wondering if the choice she make-is right?

this girl,
she's a green eye monster,
she wonders if the man she loved
loved her too?
or shes wondering if she is the one
running in his mind.

this girl,
feels like a pen,
wonders if she could write on your piece of paper,
or maybe hers..

this girl,
she's afraid.
if the path she choose,
will lead her through?
or will it? end of the road?

this girl,
is wondering if what the future hold.
is she tough enough to survive?

this girl,
she is sad.
or wait is she happy?

this girl,
she's wondering,
if she is too loud and should tone down?

this girl,
however,
hopes she is right,
she is loved,

this girl,
shes wondering,
if the time would stand still?
or is the time running out?

this girl,
hopes that she is perfect.
this girl,
is ______.

heartsss...


i dun like you, i love you with all my heart, all my soul with every beat of my heart and every breath that i breath.

miss you...




Miss you, Miss You, Miss You

Everything I do

Echoes with the laughter

And the voice of you.

You're on every corner,

Every turn and twist,

Every old familiar spot

Whispers how you're missed.

Miss you, Miss You, Miss You

Everywhere I go

There are poignant memories

Dancing in a row.

Silhouette and shadow

Of your form and face

Substance and reality

Everywhere displace.

Oh, I Miss you, Miss You….

There's a strange, sad silence

amid the busy whirl,

Just as tho the ordinary,

Daily things I do

Wait with me expectant

For a word from you…

is this my fairy tale?


and they live happily ever after...<3


-if my wish were your comment, i wish to live happily ever after with u by my side each passing day and i'll have no regrets-

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings

Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste

It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high

No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side

Storm clouds may gather

And stars may collide

But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

come what may...

Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time
...

if one is alone?




l(a

le
af
fa
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one

l
iness

e.e cummings

affection adoration passion


it's funny
>how love can break your heart but u still believe

>>how when u look into a person eyes and fall straight into a sea of love

>how u wish the day never end when u have a great time
>>how u worried about something that had yet to come
>how get angry at something that is not others fault

>>how u keep doing something that u already knew

>how u can get the courage to stand up against what is wrong

>>how the time pass when u hold your love one near
>how energy to do something for the one and only even u feel sleepy and tired >>how people view life after someone fall into a very very bad sickness
>how u feel scared doing something for the first time
>>how by doing something silly but appropriate at the wrong time
>how u feel so much of sweetness when some one say i love you
>>how u feel your gonna die when you get your exam results
>how the birds can fly but u can't
>>how beautiful life can be when its touch by love
>how you will know if the person is your soul mate

>>how tired you are but just cant fall asleep

>how u wish u could finish your homework but u don't

>>how time fly

>how excited you are gonna be to see the one you love
>>how cute it was to drown in the sea of love
>how true love song can get
>>how a flower so pretty but dies soon

if love is there.



love draw closer,

affection approach,

the clock is ticking,

hand of the clock still.

not word is said nor a tune is heard.

the sky is clear and the moon smiling down on me.


lingering here in my dream as i wait-

a gentle word-uttered.

sparks as fire, and illuminate my life.

a word said-so sweet and sudden,

perfect stranger was once u were,

now so real you are to me.


i have never fallen,

An unusual way to sing my song,

how i longed,

the touch of your hand

against the warmt of my throbing heart.


shower of love song,

and watered my soul,

the roses bloomed ,

breath of passion,

grew a garden in my heart.

my beloved !,

of whom i may follow

to the end of the world!.

-for my p.p- with lots of love...

night thoughts?


Stars, you are unfortunate, I pity you,
Beautiful as you are, shining in your glory,
Who guide seafaring men through stress and peril
And have no recompense from gods or mortals,
Love you do not, nor do you know what love is.
Hours that are aeons urgently conducting
Your figures in a dance through the vast heaven,
What journey have you ended in this moment,
Since lingering in the arms of my beloved
I lost all memory of you and midnight.


-johann wolfgang von goethe-

how do i love thee??




How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs,
and with my childhood's faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, ---
I love thee with the breath,

Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and,
if God choose,

I shall but love thee better after death.

-ebb-

Of Pearls and Stars



The pearly treasures of the sea,
The lights that spatter heaven above,
More precious than these wonders are
My heart-of-hearts filled with your love.

The ocean's power, the heavenly sights
Cannot outweigh a love filled heart.
And sparkling stars or glowing pearls
Pale as love flashes, beams and darts.

So, little, youthful maiden come
Into my ample, feverish heart
For heaven and earth and sea and sky
Do melt as love hath melt my heart.

-heinrich heine-

love oh love...

this is so cute!!

mirror mirror on the wall....

mirror mirror on the wall...
tell me the truth...
what will happen???
if not than i will fall...



Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire to." mitch albom

somethings...


" Somethings are perfect from start to finish."

ending=beginning



"all endings are also beginning. we just don't know it at that time"

if only i could reach...



"it is better to suffer wrong than to do it,
and happier something cheated not to trust."






heart we will forget him...

Heart, we will forget him,
You and I, tonight!
You must forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.

When you have done pray tell me,
Then I, my thoughts, will dim.
Haste! ‘lest while you’re lagging
I may remember him!

-e.d-

a four letter missing puzzle call LOVE




the choice is yours to tell...
my heart not yours to break...
needing both neither is a solution...

hello there...
you there! r u listening??? look here...

i like the weather...
seriously..
thats wat i was suppose to say...
can u jot ur imagination down???

you see..
u were like the weather...
you=weather..
yes. you...
some time sun shine..
some time rains...

if u are reading this,
go on;
dont stop..
not till u've done..
u see again,
that i like you,
but you were just like the sky,
covered with clouds,
unsure of what to happen.
unsure of tomorrow...

you were like the sun,
STILL, unmoved...
following the same path day by day.
just like the moon,
u change your look too often;
too many feeling,
spoiled by feeling of uncertainty...

wait! i am not done,
but i shall compare u with the
northern light,
each time you are near,
u shine.
each time you are near,
you are robed with great beauty.
it attracts me...
but u cannot stay long,
as i know your heart is not here with me;
once in every winter.

i wish the sky is blue,
just blue,
than i shall no longer need to compare,
as that i like you.
free from emotion.
we shall leave it that way?
Shall we?

-"Memories are what warm you up from the inside. But they're also what tear you apart."-
"Letters are just pieces of paper," I said. "Burn them, and what stays in your heart will stay; keep them, and what vanishes will vanish."

clarity of passion...



long story short.
(one of my fav classic)
maiden of the milky way...

linda was a kind n caring girl. she directs birds thats flys from south to north.
everyone was charm by her passion.
every young men wanted her for their bride.

Then came the Moon in a silver coach drawn by ten brown horses. He brought her twenty gifts. But Linda refused the Moon, saying: "You change your looks too often. You do not suit me.

than came a handsome coach with six brown horses, the North Star drove up, and brought ten gifts. But Linda sent him away, with hurried words: "You always have to stay in the same place. You cannot move about," said Linda.

Hardly had the Moon driven sorrowfully off, before the Sun drove up. In a golden coach with twenty red-gold horses, he rattled up to the door. He brought thirty presents with him. But all his pomp, shining splendor, and fine gifts did not help him. Linda said, "I do not want you. You are like the Moon. Day after day you follow the same path."

So the Sun went away very sad.

Then at midnight, in a diamond coach drawn by a thousand white horses, came the Northern Lights. His coming was so magnificent, that Linda ran to the door to meet him. He brought a whole coach-load of gold, silver, pearls and jeweled ornaments. The servants of the Northern Lights carried the gifts into house and his gifts pleased her.

"You do not always travel in the same course," said Linda. "You flash where you will, and stop when you please. Each time you appear, you are robed in new beauty and richness. Each time you wear a different garment with different colors. You are the true bridegroom!"

Then they got engaged to be married. The Sun, Moon, and North Star looked sadly on. They envied the Northern Lights his happiness.

The Northern Lights could not stay long in the bride's house, for he had to hurry back to the sky. When he said farewell, he promised to return soon for the wedding, and to drive Linda back with him to his home in the North. Meanwhile, they were to prepare Linda's wedding dress.

Linda made her wedding dress, and waited and waited. One day followed the other, but the bridegroom did not come to hold the joyous wedding with Linda. The winter passed, and the lovely spring adorned the earth with fresh beauty, while Linda waited in vain for her bridegroom. Nothing was seen of him!

Then she began to grieve bitterly and lament, and to cry day and night. She put on her wedding dress and white veil, and sat down in a meadow by a river. From her thousand tears, little brooks ran into the valleys. In her deep sorrow, she thought only of her bridegroom, the Northern Lights.

The little birds flew tenderly about her head, brushing her with their soft wings, to comfort her. But she did not see them, nor did she take care of them any more. So the little birds wandered about, flying here, flying there, for they did not know what to do or where to go.

Uko, Linda's father, heard of her sorrow and how the little birds were untended. He ordered his Winds to fetch his daughter to him, to rescue her from such deep grief. And while Linda was sitting alone in the meadow weeping, the Winds sank softly down beside her, and gently lifting her, bore her up and away. They laid her down in the blue sky.

And there is Linda now, living in the sky. Her white wedding veil spread round her. And if you look up at the Milky Way, you will see Linda in her wedding dress. There she is, showing the way to little birds who wander.

Linda is happy! In winter she gazes towards the North. She waves her hand at the Northern Lights flashing nearer and nearer, then he again asks her to be his bride.

But though he flashes very close to Linda, heart to heart, he cannot carry her off. She must stay forever in the sky, robed in white, and must spread out her veil to make the Milky Way.


- u like me... i like him...u dun love me... i hate u...u like her... she hates u.... she likes me but hate u...-hahahaha...

is the hard part over?



thinking bout the thing we said and we have done... its hard to let go...
i didn't know if that is the last time we ever talk, what would i have done?
life is short... life goes on... time passed but memory lingers...
what would people had done if the know that there is not much time left?
what if u only had an hour to live and only an hour to love?
what would u have done? who would u call???
we have no other life than this... give all u can love all u can.we would know if there's really tomorrow...what though death at times steps in and call our best away? why though sorrow seems to win over hope,a heavy sway?


If I knew it would be the last time

that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly,
and pray the Lord your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I'd see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss,
and call you back for just one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would tape each word and action,
and play them back throughout my days
If I knew it would be the last time,
I would spare an extra minute or two,
To stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you know I do.

So, just in case tomorrow never comes,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you,
and I hope we never will forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So, if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
And you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
That you love them very much,
and you'll always hold them dear.
Take time to say
"I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "thank you" or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today

by norma marek



if tomorrow never come....




Remembrance

Remembrance is a golden chain
Death tries to break,
but all in vain.
To have, to love, and then to part
Is the greatest sorrow of one's heart.
The years may wipe out many things
But some they wipe out never.
Like memories of those happy times
When we were all together.

-dedicated to a loving friend jacinth wee-
rest in peace my dear friend...


c.c by p.p

c.c by p.p
hübsch.kirsche

my B.U.C.K.E.T list...


laughed so hard till i cry,live my life with you,kiss under eiffle tower,kiss in the heart shaped rain,sign up for organ donor,watch sunset n sunrise wit love one over n over again, have romantic beach dinner,
watch a movie alone,,be a better first aider, join the united nation,
go on a nerve wreaking ride,
black belt in teakwondo, live happily with my prince, paste my love note on juliet's balcony, buy a camera, bungee jumping, get a car, buy a house, go on a cruise, ride a helicopter,
donate blood, dye my hair, para sailing, rock climbing, visit milan, visit rome,
climb great wall,
share true love kiss,, drive at 15o km/h, parachuting,

my p.p BUCKET list..-hope i can help too!-

1. Climbing Mount Kota Kinabalu
2. Have a romantic dinner with my love one.
3. Cheering her up and making her smile whenever she is sad or angry.,
4. Driving at 180KM/h (must at least break my daddy's record)
5. Visiting the factory of BMW in Germany.
6. Visit New York
7. Dye my hair.
8. Get a car for my wifey.
9. Get a American Hummer.
10. Underwater Diving
12. Parachuting
13. Helping my C.C to do everything in her bucket list
14. finish learning my German till A2
15. Success in my future
16. Loving my C.C and live happily after ;D
17.kiss in the rain

Favourite Quotation....

*all endings are also beginning, we just dont know it at that time...

*"Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."

*"I like myself better when I'm with you."

*"Every life has one true love snapshot."

*We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.

*You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love

sot chatters.


me.myself.i

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