today you didn't come.
i have an eerie feeling,
as i just woke to bid the morning- hi,
today seems unusual,
as i stand uneasy in the shower.
my heart feels heavy,
my brain is a messed up dump.
my feet and hands nervously trembled.
as i stood there staring out,
wondering if i could catch a glimpse of shine,
amused by the cool breeze,
that when i heard the call.
when i hear your voice,
i really hope that is a prank,
it was so quiet,
that i could hear,
the whine of noise in my room,
simple emptiness of thoughts,
all quiet and silence and all motionless.
was it God's plan?
for something that will be at it worst?
today i think,
as i always have been wondering.
maybe it is written in the stars?
it's 9.30 am,
i am still hoping to hear,
your silent footstep along the hall.
and the gentle voice of 'hi my dear".
time is taking it's own sweet moments,
minute after minute, seconds after each,
earth is spinning at its slowest speed,
when i wanted so much to hold you near.
crazy thoughts creep into my brain,
when ''what if?'' came flooding through my thoughts.
i remembered yesterday,
when u walk out from my door,
if i knew what would happen?
will i pull you back and hug you once more?
it all happens,
when today you didn't come.
you will never be lonely.
when the sun don't seem to shine anymore
today the sun don't seem to shine,
and the moon no longer bright,
or when the stars no longer twinkle.
that's when u know,
how broken it is.
tonight no words left to say,
or memory left to play,
but just plan thoughts of you.
tonight i shall die alone,
banish into your love.
let me play in the rain.
so me and my aching heart cries.
i shall live in my lonely paradise.
is this my sweet mistake?
why do i live in a world so cold?
fighting in lonely battles?
it's broken now,
shattered and cracked,
and all that is left is an empty chest.